The importance of vulnerability.

   Vulnerability sounds like a scary thing, it’s a website or program that can be hacked, its being a fragile vase on the edge waiting for a cat to knock it off and obliterate it completely, it is for a man being unmanly and not strong….

Those some of these definitions may match in some circumstance or another its not what Vulnerability in self is…. It is indeed a power or like the name suggest an ability. Growing up I was a big fan of a show called Dragon Ball z, in the show there was a almost extent race called Saiyan’s and they had the potential to become Super Saiyan’s this legendary power that the could have. The first one in the show to manifest this power did it through the pain of loss, one of the others did it through the pain of loss in knowing no matter how hard he tried he would never hit that level and surrendered to the thought in that moment he was so vulnerable with him self that he to became a super sayian and achieved and new level of magnificent power.. That’s what I experienced in my self when I got in touch with my feelings and became vulnerable, I had experiences with emotions about situations I didn’t know I ever even had feelings about. I learned relationships that I had that I thought were wonderful…could be sooo much more then what they where. I stopped making excuses about things I had to protect. I stopped hiding things that I thought I had to hide…I stopped numbing my self all the time with alcohol.  I did need to be numb anymore.  I got to let go, when I let go I was able to hold up and protect others because I didn’t have to be so worried about my self. It felt like I was unplugged from the matrix…I was raw as raw can be and everything else was petty, weak, and dismiss-able. I’m talking TRUE transformative power here…..Vulnerability… Its unlike anything I have experienced before…well Ive experienced in my relationship with God but never with my self and never with others. Its like taking that God relationship in your life and having it with your self and others. You can actually see things in your life clearly now because you quite protecting your self from things you need to go through to be the real you, you quite protecting EGO. God or the universe what ever you believe in for me its God, gave us these feelings for a reason…we need to use them. Imagine your whole life not using one of your arms because you thought it made you weak…or constantly cutting off the blood supply so you don’t feel it as much.  Your feelings register in your brain faster then your thoughts do…be in touch with that be in touch with your self and others in your vulnerability. Im not saying feelings are vulnerability for clarity I’m saying allowing your self to have them and sharing them with others is Vulnerability.  Feel your feels, speak out to whats inside with your self and others, tell others if they hurt you, be honest with your self, step into your power.